Why do I do it? I can say many different reasons, but when it comes down to it, we do it because of the way we feel after we do it or don't do it. Why do I work so hard to get in shape? I can say because I want to win. But what does winning give me? A prize and I feel good because I accomplished something. So at the end of it, we do things because of how we're going to feel.
So how are the things you're doing making you feel? Why do you do what you do?